The poem “Paralyzed” tells the story of a man who has become so depressed that he can no longer feel anything physically or emotionally. He is currently experiencing something many depressed people go through which is the in between of hating living on earth but still being scared to die. People who have already lost all hope feel as though the old them is gone and it is all their fault for allowing that to happen.
The man in the poem progressively gets worse over time knowing he has lost his old self. The person that he has known himself to be his entire life is now gone and he really can't begin to process what had happened. All he knows is that he is now acting much different than he has in the past. He states in the poem the lines, “Where’s the person that I know? They must have left” and “Where is the real me I’m lost and it kills me.” These lines show his frustration over not knowing where the old him is and wondering what happened to that person and if he will ever be able to come back.
The man in the poem along with many people in his state of mind feels it is his own fault that he has become so sad. Often a depressed person may be told that they will feel better if they exercise more or spend less time in their room. This is simply not true and is very damaging for the person to hear as it ends up making them feel as though they could have prevented everything that they are going through. He expresses in the poem the lines, “I’m in a box, But I’m the one who locked me in” and “Waves come crashing over me but I just watch ‘em I just watch ‘em.” He is trying to explain how he feels he trapped himself into this problem he can't get out of and is just watching the problems come but can't bring himself to do anything about them. He is observing things around him rather than experiencing them and also fully blames himself for entering this depressive state.
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