Paralyzed - NF

When did I become so numb?
When did I lose myself?
All the words that leave my tongue
Feel like they came from someone else

I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me - inside
I'm paralyzed

When did I become so cold?
When did I become ashamed? (ooh)
Where's the person that I know?
They must have left
They must have left
With all my faith

I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me - inside
I'm paralyzed

I'm paralyzed
I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die
And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago
But it's still alive
And it's taking over me - where am I?
I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside
But I feel nothing, I wonder why
I'm on the race of life and time passes by
Look
I sit back and I watch it, hands in my pockets
Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em
I just watch 'em
I'm under water but I feel like I'm on top of it
I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is
I'm in a box
But I'm the one who locked me in
Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen

I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me - inside
I'm paralyzed

I'm paralyzed (Yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)
Where are my feelings? (Yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)
I no longer feel things (I have no feelings)
I know I should (Oh. How come I'm not moving? Why aren't I moving? Ay yeah)
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me? (Where is the real me? Where is the real me?)
I'm lost and it kills me - inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed)
I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)

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Favorite Lines in "Seize the Day"

One of the lines that spoke to me in this poem was, “Have a place and a time to sit with your thoughts.” I liked this line because it’s meant to be a reminder to just take time out of your busy life to just stop and think. I also really loved the line, “concentrate on living hour by hour as if you were feeding coins into a meter measuring your life.” I was a big fan of the way the author used a metaphor to explain the idea of choosing to live life to the fullest. She also states in her poem, “look for small revelations all day.” What she means by this is to search life daily for new thoughts and ideas.

2 Poems

What is interesting?

The metaphors for ways teachers want students to look at poetry

The metaphors and similes of ideas offered to teach someone how to live a better life

What do you think is happening?

Professor is describing teaching poetry to  students

They explain how they want their students to look at poetry 

They are upset with their students low desire to find meaning in the poems

Reader is being instructed on how to learn to live life to the fullest

What are some lines or phrases that sound nice or capture your attention?

“And tortore a confession out of it”

“I want them to waterski across the surface of a poem”

“You must imagine to learn and embrace each and every day”

“Concentrate on living hour by hour as if you were feeding coins into a meter measuring your life”

What is the feeling or emotion of the poems? 

Professor encourages students to really dissect the poetry

Frustration with students from teacher

Carelessness about work from students

Peaceful world

Eye Opening

Enlightening

Plastic & Masking Tape Monologue

One of the ways I was very successful with performing my monologue was that I had a lot of emotion when I was delivering my lines. My monologue was about a father who was angry at his two sons for breaking the basement window and I felt I really acted out the anger that my character was meant to have. Another reason my performance was strong was that I did not fidget while I was on stage. I had to focus pretty hard on not doing this but I didn't take steps or move around, I just tried to stand there and use my hands to make gestures to show my anger. One of the things that needs to be worked on for the next time in my performance is the speed in which I deliver my lines and the spacing in between lines. I felt I was rushing through the majority of the monologue because I was so focused on making sure that I spoke the words correctly. Another thing I should work on for next time is not getting flustered when I know I have messed up a line. There is a point in the video where I say “go patch up the window with tape and masking tape” rather than “go patch up the window with plastic and masking tape” and you can hear me follow this mistake up with the words “Oh my god!” I obviously said this out of frustration because I could not remember the line but I realize now that if I would have just kept going and not have done that, it would have been much less noticeable to the audience that I had messed up. My peers all had strong performances for many different reasons. Some of them had really good emotions that stood out while others did a really good job portraying a specific character. I felt we were all speaking at a high enough volume because I remember being able to hear everyone when they performed. I also feel most of us did a very good job not looking nervous on stage. We did this by standing still or making natural movements rather than fidgeting or swaying from side to side. As a class I believe we can all benefit from working on being more comfortable not only performing but even sometimes making mistakes in front of each other. This will definitely come with time but once it happens, I don't think we will be as worried about having to perform or having to go to a second or third time in the event we could not remember our lines the first time around

Polly’s Monologue

My name is Polly the Penguin. In my opinion skiing is absolutely one of the best things to do in the winter. You get to be outside, spend time with your family, have a lot of fun and the whole time your still getting a ton of exercise. I started skiing when I was just a baby penguin and at first I was super scared but then once I learned how fun it was I couldn’t wait to go back up the mountain and do it again. I’ve tried to get my friends like Pam the Polar Bear and Willy the Walrus to come try skiing with me but they both said their too scared and that I’m more brave then they are. I don’t think I’m necessarily brave I just think I’ve had more practice so I’m confident in my skills, but I’ll take the compliment! In skiing there are green circle trails which are for beginners, then there’s blue squares for intermediates, after that there’s black diamonds for advanced skiers like me. However, if your a really crazy good skier like some of my instructors or my dad Peter the Penguin you can try a double black diamond. I’ve thought about going down one but they are super steep and I’m not looking to get hurt anytime soon. On our way back to the house after we’re done skiing we will always stop at one of our favorite pizza places and I make sure we always get the chicken wings because they are amazing. Once we get home I love to sit in front of the fire and tell my mom who doesn’t go skiing with us all about our awesome day! Skiing is fun but it’s getting to spend the whole day with my family that makes me love it so much. 

Skiing

I chose a skiing penguin as an object that represents me. I chose this because I have gone skiing with my family since the age of three. My earliest childhood memories are of me playing in the snow at a ski mountain. My grandpa would rent a house in Vermont every winter and we would travel up there on the weekends to go skiing. Those trips meant so much to me because I got to spend a lot of quality time with my family. Now I’m an instructor at a mountain in Vermont for the 4-6 year olds and I love my job so much! I’m so glad I grew up skiing and hope I will get to continue for many more years to come!

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For breakfast I had tater tots and a muffin.